[10] high

ive smoked myself inable to trust any human creature they're so weird why did I add them on facebook I don't even know who any of them are they scare me even the ones i had class with and extended small-talks with and saw around campus, parties, bars, and even museums and the grocery store for bouts of 4 or 5 years total and yet recally them as i slowly go through my entire facebook friends list and one by one focus on a name of some human creature some thing that was born some place completely irrelevant non-consequential to anything in my own town and even that attribute of being part of a popultaion born in a boundaried area has no real meaning except pure chaos and coincidence, the insane amount of detail in the lineages and timelines of every molecule, every family and every plant and every crumbling slab of road has these invisible tangled strands of affect coming off its rear as it excells forward infinitely into the fourth dimension

And trying to make those things those strange alien peices of this random floating blue-orb in blackness, the idea of me willing those things to bounce toward me and to have some deep-level-love or understanding of my existence is just fucking silly as hell to even think about, its like the most arrogant thing too, most animals manipulate things/animals solely for food, shelter, or physical aid/defense from certain death/predators while the homo sapien species and perhaps primates or some birds or even dogs manipulate others of its own species to have this physiological reactions in their lust or pulse or adrenaline or fear, we are the like to manipulate others of our own species or maybe even interspecies relationships into these things we call "emotions" or the trust and willingess to do things like buy birthday presents or a thing of milk from the store at 8 on a wednesday, and because of shit like that we think we're fucking the most brilliant shit that ever walked on two legs.

why does having a larger more complexly wired brain make us think we're capable of these spiritual invisible feelings??  When you really think about all of the human emotions are evolved branches of basic survival instincts.  i.e.  fear of a scary movie is a branch from general fear of predators in the wild which when used by early humans would obviously save their lives and continue the lineage.  or Love and lust are realy like computerized verzions of the stone tablet that is procreation and the necessary care needed to keep young, sick, wounded, or elderly from dying off an instinct of whats use im not positive except that there is strength in numbers or its simply imitation of what the human was doing for its own self.

And its all because of some chemical receptors and transmitters and nerve cells.  GoD the roots suck i wish jon and stephen would show up already.  oh look mythbusters.  don't even get me started on how fucking dumb that show is.  did you watch the episode where they test the take-only-left-turns idea for delivery trucks?  what fucking brilliant dude thought filming them drive down the wrong road twice was a good idea.  for fucks sake just film some other stretch of road we wouldn't know the fucking difference.  it just looks so unprofessional unprofessorial hokey hokey nonscience backyard experientatal drunken night bullshit.

oh my god the wave is the most genius use of science i've ever heard of but no seriously im just being an ass now who gives a shit they're just trying to pep up the uncomfortable aching sweaty masses who are wishing they could piss or shit or fucking sit down or take a fucking nap or go eat but are willing themselves against all instincts to stand in this crowd.  hey that actually looks pretty cool when all their hands wave at the same time like that.  did he just say sergeant troll? sorry im just a negative arrogant douche sometimes i dont know why i think im that smart what is smart anyway?  give me a fuckin factual example then we'll see.  i cant see the fuckin jumbotron mannnnn